*mood swings and intimate moments

honestly yes i know i sound like a little school girl and such when i say i'm in love with my boy friend, but literally i am. yea i've had multiple boy friends and multiple "guy friends" but never anything like this. he is my first love. if not my true love, and its cute cause we wen't out for coffee tonight with him best friend and that what he said about us, true love.
we are so kissy and cuddly and so affectionate with each other very often, like we'll cuddle on the couch and possibly fall asleep or whatever. or like tonight i muted the tv to only hear his heart beat and soft breath. and he knows that why i did it, i think he can some times read my mind and tells me he can read me. he does know me better then anyone.
and he also tolerates me when i started that week, mood swings like theres no tomorrow, snarky one second and pretty much bawling my eyes out the next and completely staying clam and going with it and trying to sooth me and make me laugh just to see me smile. he would do anything for me and i know it.
The absolute best part was our super intimate moment, nose to nose giving each other eskimo kisses and singing our song while i weep a tad cause im still an emotional mess but mostly because it was a beautiful moment and i just love him to much.

anyways enough of my sap stories:p

Peace&Kisses<3

*just a little catching up and a cup of tea

I know i haven't written in a while and i really do hate myself for it because i told myself that this this i was taking this blog thing seriously! But alas i was so busy with college... so many projects all at the same fucking time, to much people! anyways there was school taking a lot of time work which i do not have anymore since it was only a seasonal job and i'm clearly not good enough for them to keep me, that kinda broke my heart, i really did love that job:( and there was also a little lovers spat that i had with mi amour but we worked it out and we were working twice as had on our relationship and trying to communicate more, i do have a problem with that  because i had been boyfriendless for so long before him that i was so used to dealing with my own problems all on my own and keeping everything to myself, and thats just how i am. But know we are two people in this so i cant just shut up and keep whatever's bothering me all bottled up inside. not healthy.

Anyways everything is going good now i'm very happy first semester is over next week so i have a month off which is awesome and christmas is coming i'm so stoked! i started my christmas shopping last weekend since it was black friday and all and there were sales EVERYWHERE! I already go part of my boyfriend's present bought and also half of my mum's, which i'm both super excited to give them!

So i will have to cut this post short i have to finish getting ready and go to campus and finish editing a picture for one of my classes and hope the population of the world had a good day and /or night and i shall be of to school

*peace&kisses <3

*amazing mood and magick

Weekend was pretty tough, a lot of tears I can tell you guys that for sure!  But anyways the problem was resolved and my boyfriend and I are just as in love as the first day so I'm happy. I am in a verry good mood since sunday, specially yesterday! Everything yesterday was going great! The photograph of a pumpkin i did for last weeks project turned out amazing and the teacher put it up on the wall, so proud! I also did a photo shoot with Emilie yesterday morning that also turned out amazing! Then for lab yesterday I developed my 120mm film got some great shots and by 35mm that I had put in my new oktomat camera that I got friday! Those also turned out great I was pretty stoked to see how those turned out seeing as it was my first time with that camera and my first time doing 35mm since I was about 13. So all in all I have an amazing day just to finish it off with a great evening with my love.

ps, signed out for a free wicca course on line, it looks great  and I cant wait to get back into the magick! for all the wiccans out there who might like to check it out.

http://www.magickaschool.com/ 

*peace&kisses <3

*yaay unpleasant mood and more dilemmas

honestly in the worst mood and having  a great night, yea not so much. What are you supposed to do when your upset and you just want a cigarette to ease the unhappiness, but this little cancer stick just makes the unhappiness worst cause you get yelled at for having one and more unhappiness= more cigaretts= more unhappiness= more cigaretts and so on. So basically just shit and feeling like shit and crying your eye balls out, which i dont like. So all in all i am very fucking  unhappy at the present time and kinda just want to curl up in bed for like a month and not give a shit about anything.

*peace&kisses <3

*morning dilemma

Good morning world. I'm feeling a tad better, having had about 8 hours of sleep I guess must have helped. I am feeling a bit hungry but I don't exactly feel like eating, I think I'll just make coffee. But as I lay between my tie dye sheets in my spongebob pj pants and starwars shirt, I i debating my movie choice for this morning: perks of being a wall flower and nacked lunch or perks and rocky horror. I guess i'll just go make coffee then decide of this.


*peace&kisses <3

*coffee= no sleep and millions of shit going on in your mind

So since i cant sleep due to the cup of coffee i had before i tried to go to sleep i will talk to you about this stupid emotional wreak i turned into.( the reason why i attempted to go to bed early, i thought i was crying  non stop over everything, not the case) So what was a pretty good day, turned slightly dramatic and just plain pitiful if i do say so myself. But as i don't feel like going into the situation that set this disaster off, as i do not want to sound like a whiny bitch. All this overload of emotion all of a sudden(this doesn't normally happen to me) was a little much and sent me to isolation in a hot bath with coffee, perks of being a wall flower and a craving for a cig to calm myself a tad. This, minus cigarette, calmed me down until i talked to my boyfriend about the situation and kept bawling because i realized i was being a slight brat, which break my heart because i am never like that. ANYWAYS after all was forgiven, i still kept crying-_-. okay so I'm assuming all this crying is not because of "the situation", not because I'm supper tired, so only reasonable theory other then being insane was PMS. fuck my life . So all that coffee i had to calm me down after emotional is keeping me awake and I'm thinking about a million different thing ie: ideas i have for upcoming photo shoots, cig craving, stupid college, work tomorrow, situation with le boyfriend.

To the blogging world this is my life's problems and such.

just about sums it up.

*peace&kisses <3

*hello there

so hello new blog and such and hello blog world and lovely bloggers out there.


*peace&kisses <3