Sorry dearies that i haven't wrote anything in a while but life got pretty shit a couple weeks ago and i just didn't have it in me to do anything let alone blog. two days before christmas my dear boy friend announces to me that he wasn't happy in a relationship right now that he needed time to him self and such,at the time i guess i was so in shock because i wasn't crying, i was consoling him because he felt like a total ass hole for what he was doing to me two days before christmas none the less, that and i was deeply trying to figure this out, figure out a way that i could still be with my dear love. It was no use, his mind was made up and no matter how hard i tried to think of something he just wanted to be single for now. And i guess at this point it might have clicked a bit that it was over because i started to quietly sob thinking i had ruined yet an other relationship, and now with the man i was in love with. I was obviously thinking of everything i had ever done in this relationship with him and thinking everything i did drove him away.He started crying too because he knew he hadn't only broken my heart but that he ha broken me completely. He grabs my chin and lifts my face so that i'm looking at him with tears still streaming down my cheeks, he he looks in to my eyes, so intensely that it made the dagger in my heart twist even more, he looks at me and says"gab i still love you so much and don't ever think otherwise, but i have to do this and and i'm so sorry"
This obviously makes me cry harder but i know he loves me but i just comprehend why... He holds me tighter as were both still crying
*peace&kisses <3
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