*new begging and the future

good goddess, i'm terrible at writing a blog, but i shall do better and try my best to write! anyways today i went to the bank and talking about all this the "future" and being "responsible" and all that jazz. it mad be think that yes i want to be responsible and yes i want to start saving for the future! i want to eventually buy my own place and live on my own, i want that so badly. i think i can do it! and its time to stop acting like a child, i'm not one anymore. possibly if i start acting like an adult, my parents might ease up and let me be an adult and let me use my money the way i see fit. i mean that is what adults do right?

on top of all that i also decided to make amens with certain people that i have done wrong by or even if they have done wrong by me that does matter i feel that there is possibly bad karma or even just bad energy with that, and i don't want any of it! i want to be a better person, and i want good karma. i'm tired of the bad that keeps happening so good karma here i come!

as i think about all of that and  and reread everything , i find that i've quite and emotionally exhausting day so far. but its good these are thing that need to done. i can't live at home forever with my parents with no conscious of how to live on my on with my own money and making my own way in the world.  

anyways i have a lot to think about and i am determined to do this and i am quite certain i can do this even if my parents might not think so. i can do this! :]

*peace&kisses <3